it never rains does it?

Sometimes life just meets you with lots of things you don’t which way to look first … I wonder if that is true or is it me doing it to myself. The logical reasoning is that it’s true but i’m just acting as a catalyst to make its effects worse.

I just live on complications don’t i?

I got seroius problems with M and don’t wanna lose her. I have exams starting with only 9 days left to study and i haven’t even started (hopefully today). I’m constantly trying to work because i’m in constant state of financial crap and my parents can’t support me as they have their own shit to take care of. I’m worried about my friends when i get busy with exams, i don’t want them to get too involved with X and find myself alone when i’m done. I’m worried about the military, i really don’t wanna waste any more time in my life … i’ve lost enough by all those stupid choices i made … it’s really not the time for any more due to things that’re out of my hands. I wanna feel good … and make someone else feel the same.  … well i think i’m starting to get off point so probably it’s about time i shut up and post this.