Archive for April, 2008


Exit Music

April 30, 2008

Wake… from your sleep
The drying of your tears
Today.. we escape
We escape.

Pack and get dressed
Before your father hears us
Before.. all hell.. breaks loose.

Breathe… keep breathing
Don’t lose.. your nerve.
Breathe… keep breathing
I can’t do this.. alone.

Sing us a song
A song to keep us warm
There’s such a chill
Such a chill.

You can laugh
A spineless laugh
We hope that your rules and wisdom choke you
Now we are one
In everlasting peace

We hope that you choke.. that you choke
We hope that you choke.. that you choke
We hope that you choke.. that you choke


this is 4 you baby/sweetie

April 30, 2008

this song is for you:

i initially wrote a bit of a long post but i don’t think i have the guts to actually click publish … think this page is kinda losing its purpose 😦


Is it over already??

April 26, 2008

I woke up today madroob bel gazma tub3an … and looking at the calender i realized it was the 26th. My safe period of peace is over. Supposedly X is back in town starting yesterday … so this officially is the start of the period where i have to deal with her existence among my friends … or try have her get out … and yes i can’t stand her so much i CAN be that mean … is it mean uslan???

anyways… wish me luck cause i really need it … cause seriously i can’t stand the idea of even seeing her coincidentally down the street


kefaaya fa23 ya donya

April 26, 2008

perfect night for insomnia isn’t it??


quoting my favorite character from my favorite movie

April 25, 2008

“I am Jack’s inflamed sense of rejection … i feel like putting a bullet between the eyes of every panda that wouldn’t screw to save its species … i wanna open the dump valves on oil tankers and smother all those French beaches i’ll never see … i wanted to breathe smoke … i felt like destroying something beautiful …”

i’m calmer now … guess the numbness is starting to kick in … or maybe it’s me burying the monster to later emerge and destroy the planet …


Hayel (part 2)

April 25, 2008

WARNING: This post contains nothing but extreme bitching from my side … i’m angry … and i’m not really controlling or want to control how suitable my vocabulary is … so if you’re keen on extremely decent verbal terms … find yourself another post to read

As explained earlier … i use this term when i’m just numb … like is situations when just about everything is going wrong and yet another thing follows to fall apart … kaza 7asal … hayel

I’m just getting sick of how nothing seems to be working properly, or as it should, not matter how much i try. Makes me not stand the human race sometimes. You do a little extra trying to please someone and they just start treating you as their servant, or just end up being completely ignored and wonder why … well it’s because you were doing something nice … tab did u actually do it? i don’t know … and don’t know if i should care

Like that day the guys organized a movie night just to discover they had no movies when everyone was there … luckily i had my laptop and had a coupla movies in it … after i go through burning DVDs and setting things up, they totally ignore it till half of it is gone then bitch about it not having subtitles …. what’s this movie talking about? hayek tab mate7kelna … eh da it doesn’t LOOK funny… tab maho bdeen abo ro7ommoko law etnayyelto etfaaragto u’ll get it .. after all it’s a story … plus bdeen ommoko bardo law konto etzaffetto gebto 7aaga 3ayzeen teshofooha eb2a et7’arro 3ala ahaleeko et2ammaro (sorry for how obscene this might seem to a few but i felt like letting it out. eh da hayek shaklak maf2oo3!? sorry assly 7’addam abo ashkalko.

You go bust your ass on that job that’s supposed to be sort of team played and no one responds w kollo 2a3ed yet3oola2 and then tetla3 enta elly dammak te2eel 3ashan 3ayez el denya temshy badal mal clients meymar7’aro bkaramtak el ard … w yareetak kont enta elly in charge uslan… and the best thing is when the most ignorant of them all is the one making decisions and totally ignores your opinion da law kan uslan eddak ayy attention wenta betetkallem for him to eventually get fucked and resolve to what you were saying?? eh da ya ragel enta ma2oltesh keda leh??? a7a ma law 7adretak battalt tetnayyel te3eesh fdoor el cool el mohemm w tesma3 makansh zamaanak marfoo3 7aleyan

and i wonder … why the heck do i even try??? the world keeps turning anyways and the system works bel taree2a bent el kalb dy and eventually all the assholes win anyways … it’s gonna be much easier becoming an asshole than exerting the extra effort to do it right … w homma mestarayya7een keda wel denya mashya … no headaches … no fa23a … not trying to be a good friend and just find no response what so ever … not feeling like you’re running after people to actually help them or do them something good … fokkak tamaaman

yeah … i’m feeling extremely angry and negative right now … and can proudly admit that there’s not ONE single human being that i can stand right now …. NONE …. and i mean it. .. so don’t even bother commenting



April 24, 2008

We blurters complain alot … about life … situations … feelings … and most frequently about other people and their actions. We call them this and that … internally we also judge them as this or that … we diss our society and make fun of everyone else’s mentality…

but what if we’re just the same as them? what if we’re guilty of the same things we accuse them of but we just can’t see it cause in some way or the other we think so highly of ourselves and are subconsciously patronizing all inferior human beings?? wallahy wla 7atta elly mesh inferior …

just wondering …