Archive for the ‘music’ Category



May 21, 2008

So … i’m in this constant struggle with myself to become better … every night i decide i wanna quit smoking … everyday i decide i wanna exercise more … and everyday i do nothing from what i’ve decided. I took up swimming for two weeks … then as usual … quit. I quit smoking for 5 days … and as usual i just returned to the habit as strongly as ever …
How come it’s so easy to keep the bad habits up, and difficult to keep the good ones. How come we don’t mind going through whatever difficulty it is that we have to go through for the sake of bad habits … while refraining from exerting the smallest of efforts for the sake of something good?
Am I rightfully generalizing or is it just my case?

Anyways .. as usual, i decided i wanted to quit last night … so far i haven’t had cigarettes today but then again i didn’t go out yet… I also decided to get on the treadmill for a change (oh did i ever mention the lazy me has a treadmill in the house?) … i put on some music, Nine Inch Nails new album that Gadfri generously sent me, and off i went. 4 tracks into the album i just found me being described … so i put the track on repeat for the 40 minutes i walked on the treadmill … i also have to recommend it for anyone on a treadmill, it’s tempo is really fun to match 🙂 … and i didn’t end up listening to anything else from the album … yet 😀

so ladies and gents … i recommend to you my song for the day and it’s called “Discipline” by Nine Inch Nails, from their album “The Slip”

oh you can get it from here btw:

and if u wanna receive my periodic songs of the day or share yours, you can still join me on my music group at:

Wish you all the strength to get rid of your bad habits … and to sustain your good ones …

kov 🙂


Coincidence or Extreme Activity from the Subconscious??

May 8, 2008

So i sent this song on my group yesterday … and then had this encounter with my X finally … and i just couldn’t be but straight forward and direct to the extent of what a friend of mine later described as mean. I’m sorry i just didn’t wanna go make up lies on how i’m okay and can be friends and all that crap … cause that person fucked me up so bad and she doesn’t even deserve to be my friend??

Listening to the song i’ve been listening to since yesterday i discovered it’s retelling the whole scene!!! was it a coincidence or is my subconscious that strong?? anyways … i’m still in a complete state of shock

why the hell aren’t there any decent vidz for the songs i like these days?? :@

anyways … i’ll just have to settle for that until i figure out how to upload the songs nafsohom instead of using youtube 😦


Exit Music

April 30, 2008

Wake… from your sleep
The drying of your tears
Today.. we escape
We escape.

Pack and get dressed
Before your father hears us
Before.. all hell.. breaks loose.

Breathe… keep breathing
Don’t lose.. your nerve.
Breathe… keep breathing
I can’t do this.. alone.

Sing us a song
A song to keep us warm
There’s such a chill
Such a chill.

You can laugh
A spineless laugh
We hope that your rules and wisdom choke you
Now we are one
In everlasting peace

We hope that you choke.. that you choke
We hope that you choke.. that you choke
We hope that you choke.. that you choke


this is 4 you baby/sweetie

April 30, 2008

this song is for you:

i initially wrote a bit of a long post but i don’t think i have the guts to actually click publish … think this page is kinda losing its purpose 😦


April 15, 2008

“Somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
I need to calculate … what creates my own madness
And i’m addicted to your punishment
Cause you’re the master
And I am craving this disaster

I Feel Irrational … So confrontational
To tell the truth Again
I’m getting away with murder
It isn’t possible … to never tell the truth
Cause the reality’s i’m getting away with murder

I drink my drink and i don’t even want to
i think my thoughts when i don’t even need to
I don’t look back because i don’t even want to
and i don’t need to
because i’m getting away with murder

I feel Irrational … so Confrontational
To tell the truth again
I’m getting away with murder
now is it possible … to never tell the truth?
cause the reality is i’m getting away with murder”

Excerpt from Paparoach’s track with reaaaally minor adjustments by yours truly


Something I Can never Have (Still)

April 7, 2008

I can now say that I have entered into a new obsession … and it’s called Nine Inch Nails & Trent Reznor


feel like crying it out

April 3, 2008

Should I call you
Should I reach out?
It feels like chasing shadows in the night
Yeah let me in
Because I’m out
I know that I am someone
No one said I was … No one said I was

Thrown Away ~ VAST